To Whom it May Concern:
I was born and raised in the church, grew up in Provo, attended and graduated from BYU and married in the temple. I’ve essentially always been active, served in callings, graduated seminary, etc. Despite all that, I rarely felt as though I had a place in the church, because I do not fit the suggested pattern the church lays out for women and I do not want to.
For as long as I can remember, I was uninterested in being a mother. It has never appealed to me, and I don’t believe I would be good at it. I love going to school and am dedicated to my areas of study. I want to work in the areas that interest me, and believe that that is what God wants me to do. I have spend the better part of my teen/young adult years feeling guilty because what God wants me to do and what the church said God wants me to do didn’t line up. I’ve done everything I’m supposed to do, but God continues to support my desire for education and employment rather then telling me to have kids.
This leaves me with no place in the church. Read more…